When your wedding is no longer about you....

It's funny.....I have been told that my wedding is about me and my Fiance....guess what!! It's not! It's bascially about whatever everyone else wants and they dont even take you into consideration. I have been so incredibly patient in this process but now that tiny bridezilla attitude is slowly coming out. From the ridiculousness of the Church in which I am getting married at....to my parents...I am starting to go nutty!! Why can't I get a say in something?! Heck..if the church gets their way.....I won't even get to have who I want to sing at my wedding. It's just such an injustice and this is why so many people turn away from the Catholic church. First.....I was forced to sign my life away...or my future children's lives away. I had to sign that I would raise them Catholic. Okay....not so big of an issue...except Mark isn't Catholic and I love how the church ignores his faith and his beliefs....and they are just like sooo what....they gotta be Catholic. Next....this stupid choir director and her high horse. I am not allowed any outside accompianists, and my singer has to be deemed "an accomplished Christian singer." Why does my singer have to prove anything? She is who I want to sing...I don't want the horrendously awful people they have at my Church...my ears don't want to bleed at my own wedding thank you!! And finally.....we meet with the priest.....decide that we shouldn't do Communion or honor Mary thing because Mark isn't Catholic...so it does not make sense too. Come home...tell the parents...they freak out and Dad insists he's calling the priest and raising hell about it! This is a sure way to push your kids away from the Catholic faith. Plus....again...NO ONE IS EVEN TAKING MARK INTO CONSIDERATION!! HE IS NOT CATHOLIC......SO WHY SHOULD THEIR EVEN BE COMMUNION WHEN HE CANT HAVE IT!!!!! Ughhh....sooo annoying. When your parents aren't ridiculously hardcore, Catholicism is a great thing. Except my parents are insane about it.....and as strong as my faith is....sometimes I wish I was another denomination because over the course of my life I have missed out on so many great opportunites because of their ridiculousness. It makes me resent being Catholic..which is awful to say...but it's true. My younger sister is prime example of this. I will never ever push my kids (even when they are adults) into doing things my way religiously speaking. Faith is a personal thing...but my parents make it an obligation....and that's not how it should be. Then they turn things around...and make it sound like I am unchristian and that I have no faith. I am just so sick of it...and can't wait to be free to make my own decisions.

Melissa's expert advice (haha)

Wow...I am what you call a Blogger failure. I just always forget and occupy myself with other things in my life. Like my 3 grade classes......which I like 2 out 3 classes....my last one is AWFUL. I cant wait for May 6 when it's over....and hopefully I won't fail it between now and then cause this professor is all over the place!!!
In other news....my mother LOVES to make me feel oh so good about the job hunt (and I mean this in the most sarcastic fashion ever). Translation.. I am screwed...especially with the major budget cuts. She actually said, "I wonder if you should even continue towards your Masters." That sure makes me feel good when she's confirming my fear that I am paying all this money and it won't make a difference. I guess what is probably going to happen is I am going to be doing a job I hate...like working in a day care where I am not teaching...just babysitting, changing diapers, and making virtually nowhere near what I should be with my degree.
So all of you future college students out there...DO NOT attend school for elementary teaching. People are not retiring and schools are simply not hiring. I suggest do something that has a great need...like medical field (if you can handle the intensity of those classes) or social work. Or if you are wanting to teach badly...go for Special Education. I could never do it..as this was confirmed when I was tricked into subbing in a Learning support room last week. However, I believe there are people at there that have a special gift and could really help children out.
Another bit of advice....if you are planning on getting married....ELOPE or do Justice of the PEace. It will save you the ridiculousness that you have to go through and a lot of money. I of course...am referring to the ridculousness that I have encountered via St. Ferdinand's. Seriously...I don't ask for much..all I want is Abbie to sing at my wedding...and that is such a huge issue. Good Gravy.
Last, and this is one I struggle to remember....but don't lose faith in the power of prayer. I will admit...I have my moments of self doubt and I think that I can pray about lots of things and nothing comes of it and that it's a waste of time. However...recently I've been reading an inspirational book that tells about people's real experiences with the power of prayer. Recently, I kinda experienced a small miracle of my own. I said a prayer in church that my aunt and uncle sell their house soon so they can move, and sure enough they sold it the very next day!! Now if only my prayers could be answered about employment...however....I believe that for some reason there's a purpose to it all. Maybe God decided that he wants me to do something else in my life that I couldn't do if I had my own classroom...or possibly he wants me to work on my patience (which is severely lacking). In the end, I can't complain. I am the happiest I've ever been , my friends and family are safe and healthy, and I get to marry my best best friend in the whole entire world in October.
Anyhow.....I have to get back to my schoolwork after procrastinating a bit...later!!